Thoughts to start with

I am all of 43 years old now. I have had my highs and my lows. I have seen friends come and go. Some that will be a part of my life from now till the light leaves my eyes for the last time. I have seen and shared with many that will never know the numbers of days that they should have.I have learned to care,cry, love, laugh, share, hate, be jelous, hurt, suffer, and to dance. I have seen blind bigotry hidden in the eyes of racism. I have seen so much love it's hard to believe that it is even possible. I have witness so much hate. I have played and been the fool. I have been the asshole the jurk and the lost. I have been the hope and the answer.. the know it all .. and know nothing... believed to have the answer to only be wrong or right.

The reallity of it all is more then we all see. Most defenately more then we will ever do. You either are a part of life or live life. Living life is making something of your self. Something that you yourself are happy if not proud of. This can be as simple as living life to the best that you know how or it can be so much more as in participating in events, parties, spending time with friends. Each time you meet and make new freinds a part of your life you inriching their lifes by making theirs so much more then they would be with out you. Let alone how much each and every one of them make us grow.

In doing such making once own life worth living, inriched and so much more than it would just have been. If you do the opposite and just watch life go by. Be carefull. DON'T fall into this trap. It is a trap after all just a mith of some one elses making. It is a choice after all.

Watching life go by. Yes a choice made of our own beliefs. Our own conceptions of that which we have been taught or learned. The belief that life must be live to the beliefs of some one else. The belief that what you me feel or see in your hart is wrong. so instead of being the person you are. Instead of living your life. You watch life go by. you do not participate. you do not feel. you are stagnate. You do nothing. You fall into disspear. You believe nothing of your self. Your numb. Life has no meaning . Your know nothing but depression.. but it that truly reality.... NO.